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में भी जगह नहीं मिलती..

-गुलज़ार

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Veda's tears fell like rain, her heart shattered into a million pieces as Adyant's words echoed in her mind: "Hate, disgust, and contempt. I feel them every time I see your face."

She wandered aimlessly, lost in thought, until she found herself in the garden. The stars above twinkled like diamonds, but her world felt dark and empty. She was surrounded with peace and calm but only she knew the chaos which was pacing with high intensity inside her mind.

Veda collapsed onto a bench, her body trembling. She felt worthless, unloved, and caged in this lifetime cage called marriage.

"Why did I ever hoped that he would love me oneday?" she whispered to herself, her heart clenching in pain.

The pain continued to flow inside her chest as teardrops fell from her brown eyes.

Memories flooded her mind: their wedding day, Adyant's distant smile, his cold eyes and the way he had taken her in their wedding night.

The memory of their first night surrounded her as she remembered the night when Adyant entered the dimly lit bedroom, the scent of rose petals and incense hanging heavy in the air. The soft glow of candles casted shadows on the blacl walls, creating an intimate ambiance. Veda, dressed in a heavy wedding lehanga, adorned with heavy and royal jewelleries sat on the bed, her eyes fixed on the floor. Her hands were folded in her lap, her fingers intertwined in a nervous grasp as her heart thudded Inside her chest.

His gaze swept over her, taking in the innocence and vulnerability etched on her face. For a moment, his resolve wavered and he felt something inside his heart. She looked too innocent and vulnerable to be corrupted like this. He saw the fear in her eyes, the uncertainty that gripped her heart.

"Veda," he said, his voice low and husky, barely above a whisper.

She looked up, her eyes sparkling with unshed tears. "Jii?" Her voice trembled, betraying her attempt at bravery.

He approached her, his movements deliberate, his footsteps echoing in the silence. Veda's hands trembled as he reached out to remove her lehanga. The dupatta slipped from her shoulder, revealing the delicate curve of her neck

Veda gasped as his fingers roughly touched her neck.

This wasn't how she had expected her first night to be like.

She had wished that her partner would love to know about her. She had hoped her partner will talk to her and they both will know more about each other but here Adyant was looking at her with anger and an unexpected hint of lust after seeing her neck.

She had no problem with consummation their marriage right away but she still hoped that they both learnt more about each other, their life and their hobbies and grow to know each other better.

"Should not we get to know more about each other first?"

She spoke, her voice shaking slightly.

Adyant's eyes narrowed, his jaw clenched. "You're my wife now. This is expected. I'm a man with needs, Veda. I hope you won't act like some naive little girl. I'm sure you know what happens between a couple during their wedding night."

The words felt hollow, devoid of any emotion as he spoke to her like she's some object not a human.

Veda's face crumpled, but she didn't resist. Nodding her head she didn't dared to abide him again. She didn't had any problem in consummating the marriage on the very first night but she did hoped to know more about Adyant before they unite and become one.

She was already confused by Adyant's behavior and the way he was lookong displeased. Hearing Adyant's cold voice made her didn't settle well with Veda as well as she began to think of the reason for Adyant's dissatisfaction.

He's my husband. He likes me that's why he agreed to marry me. He's tired from all the wedding and things maybe that's why he's talking like this. I need to stop over. reacting. We will get to know each other soon enough and what's more beautiful than to be intimate with the man I love.

She thought, bracing herself for their wedding night.

Veda was shy as she thought of the way her husband will touch her tonight. She was nervous but she could feel a slight hint of excitement building within her too. She had heard her classmates talking about it secretly and she couldn't help but blush as she thought of her own wedding night tonight.

As he claimed her, Veda's tears fell silently due to the first time of Intercourse. her body trembling beneath his. She fell a sharp pain hit her as his long fingers moved inside tight virgin hole. Adyant told her to stop him if she finds it unbearable. Soon the pain turned into pleasure and a small moan escaped her mouth as he made her cum again and again.

She winced as Adyant groped her breasts roughly. He kneaded them a bit rough making her hiss. His eyes softened for a second as he heard her hissing a bit.

"Should I stop?" He suddenly spoke up, a look of guilt which he soon masked with an emotionless look.

"No...just be gentle.." The words fell off Veda's mouth and Adyant nodded his head as he kissed her breasts gently. He slowly kneaded them, his fingers working gently on her breats, making her writh in pleasure. Soon she felt her hole getting wet as Adyant took her breasts inside his mouth, sucking at them sensually. Veda moaned in ectasy as Adyant touches grew more bold.

The moments passed and she felt him laying her down on her stomach.

His fingers slowly moved inside her hole, stretching and preparing it for his cock. Once she was prepared, he entered her hole with his long and huge cock slowly. She gasped in pain at first and muffled her screams, covering her face in the silky pillow.

"Take deep breaths. Tell me if it pains too much. I'll stop if you feel uncomfortable."

His words made Veda sigh in relief and she hummed a yes. Taking deep breaths she tried to calm herself down. She could feel Adyant groaning in pain as well since he had stopped thrusting inside her to give her sometime to adjust his size.

Finally Veda began to adjust with his size and told him to move further. She heard Adyant groaning in satisfaction, his slow thrusts making him groan in pleasure while Veda moaned from the feeling of having Adyant inside her. Soon her own pain turned into pleasure as the couple drowned in the waves of pleasure together.

"Tell me when you want me to slow down."

He spoke, his voice rough and husky as his thrusts started getting more rough and hard, making her body dance with the wild tunes of lust with his hard and fast strokes.

He did slowed down whenever she requested. The night went on but the time passed slowly for her as the couple got intimate in different positions.

A few hours later she felt something hot like liquid spilling in her stomach. She moaned in pleasure as Adyant sucked her breasts sensually and jerked his last spurt of load in her stomach.

He untangled himself from her. His face stoic as he looked at Veda with an emotionless look at his face and went to the bathroom to take a shower, leaving her feeling isolated and shattered.

All Veda felt was immense pain inside her heart as it hit her directly in the soul.

He left just like that?

No kisses?

No hugs?

No words of affection or care?

He didn't even asked me how I feel, if I'm okay or am i still in pain?

She thought as unshed tears filled her fragile heart as the thoughts surrounded her mind and sorrow made it's way in her eyes.

She wanted to push him away, cry, slap him hard and scold him for treating her like some kind of whore.

The night wore on, the silence between them oppressive, heavy with unspoken words and pain.

Adyant's emotions warred within him - guilt, regret, and resentment but his hate and anger supressed them all.

Veda's quiet sobs echoed through the night, a haunting melody that would forever be imprimted in both her and Adyant's memory. Remorse deepened inside his chest as he heard Veda's quite sobs coming from the room. Adyant knew he made a huge mistake by sleeping with the girl he himself claimed to hate.

He hated himself for his own weakness, for the fact that he indeed somehow lost control and got intimate with Veda when he had never planned to do it in the first place. His anger and desire both were fighting together and at the end he ended up committing something which he had never planned in the first place.

Soon he came out of the bathroom with a wet cloth on his hand. Veda hissed slightly as Adyant spread her legs and cleaned her up. She no longer had any traces of her Virgin blood in between her legs anymore. She felt him cleaning her body slowly with another wet cloth.

She wanted him to say something, to stop acting like a emotionless statue but Adyant didn't say anything much to Veda's dismay.

She gazed at the man as he held a box in his hand, shuffling through medicines. Adyant pulled out a cream tube from the box and silently put the cream in Veda's hole. She felt a soothing and cooling sensation inside her vagina, the gel subsiding the little pain she was feeling inside her hole.

She mumbled a thank you to Adyant but the man remained silent and emotionless.

"It is a skin cream. It can be used for vaginal irritation or pain too. Use it if you feel pain in your lower body again." Adyant spoke, his voice cold and devoid of any emotion or more like the man was trying to mask his emotions from Veda.

Veda didn't know how but the tears fell off her eyes on by one. Adyant felt his heart ache as he looked at Veda's eyes tearing up.

He suddenly had an urge to more forward and hug her tight, to reassure her and make her feel better. But he stopped, reminding himself of the pain she put him through.

She knew what she signed up for. There's no need for her to act like a child now. He thought covering her body from the duvet again and left the room wearing his clothes again, leaving the naked girl alone in the bed.

She kept looking at his disappearing figure. Her heart aching in pain as her small hope wishing for him to look back shattered into pieces.

And this was the moment when of realisation that she will be alone in this marriage with her loneliness and unrequited love.

Coming to the present time his words still echoed in her mind.

"You're just a village girl, Veda. You'll never understand my world."

His words stung like a slap.

Veda's thoughts drifted to her parents, who had entrusted Adyant with her happiness.

"Would they have taken me away if they were alive?" she wondered.

The haze of the silent night broke from the sound of footsteps breaking it's silence.

She looked around and found Advith, Adyant's father, approaching her.

"Veda, beta, what's wrong?" he asked, concern etched on his face.

Veda wiped her tears, trying to compose herself.

"Nothing, papa. Just tired."

Advith's eyes narrowed.

"Did Ayant do something? Tell me, beta. You are my daughter, Veda and I wouldn't spare anybody who dares to make any of my daughter cry."

Advith's words were no joke and she Veda knew it. He was really possessive about all the children of Rathore family especially his daughters and he considered Veda as his own child.

But will he really choose you over his son?...Her conscious mocked but a part of her wondered if the Rathore family would support her if they ever get to know about the torment she is facing from Adyant.

Veda forced a smile.

"I know, papa. I'm just...in need of rest"

The lie felt bitter to her own tongue but she continued with it.

Advith nodded and gently patted her hand

"If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here, bacha."

As he walked away, Veda felt a pang of guilt.

She couldn't confide in Advith or anyone.

How could she?

They've given her so much love and affection.

How can she just go over and tell them that she's anything but happy in this mansion.

No. She knew she couldn't. At least not yet.

The words kept swirling in her mind making her restlesss.

Adyant's words still lingered in her mind.

"Hate, disgust, and contempt."

Veda began to pace the garden, her thoughts racing.

The sound of the fountain calmed her racing thoughts.

As she gazed into the water, a wave of calm filled her heart and she braced herself for another day hoping to get her husband's affection someday, wishing her unfulfilled dream to fill her world with happiness but soon the dream shattered again and the reflections of pain remained the same, piercing her heart with coldness, yet again.

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